I never anticipated mowing the lawn would bring me joy. In the past, it has been a source of contention with my husband but somehow this summer it became an unexpected source of healing.
Due to my husband’s summer training schedule, he is rarely home and I get stuck with the chore. The one chore I ask him to do he gets out of because he’s off serving our country. It can be kind of annoying — you want to get mad but it seems kind of wrong to do so. It’s a conundrum for sure.
In the mix I was also pregnant, giving birth, raising infants and toddlers. There was a lot happening within the home that made the outdoor chore feel unsafe and impossible. What if the baby got out of the crib and I was out front, mowing the lawn? What if they fell down the stairs or got into the scissors while I’m weed whacking the lawn?
Last summer he was gone so much we hired a friend’s high schooler and it was glorious! This huge area of contention in our marriage was taken care of for one WHOLE summer.
With a history of such angst and worry, it took me by surprise this year to realize I got great satisfaction out of mowing the lawn. I’ve discovered there are a few reasons:
- The physical effort helps release frustration brewing inside. Which, with PTSD and 3 kiddos there is a constant flow of that happening.
- I get immediate results. Since I live with a condition that can be unpredictable and requires constant monitoring, it’s nice to do something and see a measurable result right away.
- My neighbor compliments me and I let her words go straight to my head! I’ll be honest, the praise does this mama good when most chores go unseen and are repeated often.
Is there a regular chore you might find great satisfaction in? Washing the car, doing the laundry, cooking dinner? Finding joy in the everyday things can seem ridiculously optimistic; however, after this experience with mowing the lawn, I invite you to take a step back and reconsider your day to day chores. If there is something that makes you smile, I’d love to hear about it! Email me at firstname.lastname@example.org about it, let’s connect.